Saturday, June 14, 2014

What is going on with life?

It has been an eternity since I last posted. I could almost say a lifetime ago.

My ex-wife was diagnosed with breast cancer a few weeks ago. She just finished the first four sessions of chemo. She is fighting with everything she has. The tumor is shrinking some, but it was very large to start. In a week or so, the weekly treatments begin.

I'm doing what I can to help. I've been taking the kids every weekend. They are handling things well. I am trying to put aside the resentment I still feel over the divorce. There are times when I relive every emotion I've experienced in our entire relationship. Divorced or not, our children will tie us together for life. I hope with every fiber of my being that she is around to see them grown.

Her illness has eliminated my option of just allowing myself to fade away. My daughter isn't quite 11, I must outlive my father if I want to her to see her grown. My boys are much closer to adulthood, I think they will be fine young men regardless of events. The youngest still faces puberty and everything that I don't know how I could explain. I would muddle through, but I would be a poor substitute for her mother.

Needless to say, there are a great many things on my mind, Even trying to write is an impossible task. To be honest, I doubt anyone will even notice my hiatus.